So, I’ve been observing when I get anxious more and more. It seems like I get anxious when I watch t.v. a lot. I mean I don’t want to stop watching t.v. just because I get anxious, I think that’s quite pathetic. People say that television numbs the mind…I beg to differ. Sure sometimes it takes my anxious ridden brain down a notch but most of the time my anxiety prevails…I’ve been working on that though…the point is I think about stuff while watching t.v. and even more so during commercials…this can’t be too healthy? I’ve been struggling to live in the moment, it really is not all that easy. Hold on my show is back on….
 
 I can’t believe they shot her at her own wedding…CSI, sorry. 

Anyways…yeah anxiety…mostly during commercials. Idk…maybe the mind is numbed until you hit that lovely mute button. I hate those little goosebumps I get when I’m anxious…they really gotta stop, they don’t make the situation any better. Because then at that point I’m like CRAP I’m nervous and then I have to realize that I won’t go back to my old ways and get nervous about being nervous…but its tempting? I don’t think its so much tempting as it is hard to fight. Writing this isn’t really easy because right now I just have to deprive my senses but I’m not going to, at least not right now, my show is on…stupid anxiety, gets in the way of everything.

I was looking for a cute and quirky image to post and then I found the one below…oh god…more anxiety?